I honestly only just put that one together like...right now.
[Doubtlessly there will be many similar revelations in the coming days, past interactions that they revisit in a new light and realize just how incredibly dense they've been.
Part of them wants to apologize in return. Sorry for not realizing sooner or something like that. But that's almost like calling Isabeau extremely obvious about it all right to his face, so Siffrin swallows the impulse down.
They're quiet for a moment, fingers absently toying with the fabric of Isabeau's sleep shirt.]
...You don't mind me talking about it? The loops? Mira didn't wanna hear it. "Spoilers" and all that.
[He's torn, honestly. He doesn't want to burden them all with this shit – the stuff he went through, details about themselves they haven't shared or didn't even realize yet, the discomfort of someone knowing more about them than they should. They're not stupid, obviously they know that's all a thing. It's just probably easier for them to not dwell on it if he just keeps his mouth shut.
But at the same time, they have a right to know what he knows, don't they? And more than anything, Siffrin just...wants to share these memories with someone. It's lonely, having shared all these moments with all of them and being the only one to remember any of them. It's just his luck that the experiences they actually had in the end were the worst possible ones. And there's no way to make any of it "real" anymore. All he can do is deal with it on his own, or share in the more traditional sense.
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[Doubtlessly there will be many similar revelations in the coming days, past interactions that they revisit in a new light and realize just how incredibly dense they've been.
Part of them wants to apologize in return. Sorry for not realizing sooner or something like that. But that's almost like calling Isabeau extremely obvious about it all right to his face, so Siffrin swallows the impulse down.
They're quiet for a moment, fingers absently toying with the fabric of Isabeau's sleep shirt.]
...You don't mind me talking about it? The loops? Mira didn't wanna hear it. "Spoilers" and all that.
[He's torn, honestly. He doesn't want to burden them all with this shit – the stuff he went through, details about themselves they haven't shared or didn't even realize yet, the discomfort of someone knowing more about them than they should. They're not stupid, obviously they know that's all a thing. It's just probably easier for them to not dwell on it if he just keeps his mouth shut.
But at the same time, they have a right to know what he knows, don't they? And more than anything, Siffrin just...wants to share these memories with someone. It's lonely, having shared all these moments with all of them and being the only one to remember any of them. It's just his luck that the experiences they actually had in the end were the worst possible ones. And there's no way to make any of it "real" anymore. All he can do is deal with it on his own, or share in the more traditional sense.
But only if they're okay with it.]